28 June 2005
It has been awhile since I was last moved to write. Sometimes that happens. When it does, we just absorb whatever experiences come our way and continue to do what we are moved to do. Those times are just as important as the times of expression, just in a different way. So, what would come forth the 28 day in a 1355 = 14 month? 14/28 is a variation of 2184. 28:The Man with the World in his Hand and 41:Ace of Cups = Wayne. Interesting that the events of the past two days would transpire on 6/27-28. This is 6:The Lovers / 27:Ace of Wands:New Start in the Field of Spirit - 28:Man with the World in His Hand. 2728 was my wife's address when I met her and moved in with her. 27 * 28 = 7 56, the two drivers of my triangle tarot readings. Further, 3140 is associated with the new job. From the middle around to the left, this is 1 3 04 1 ... a form of 1341 with 0:Source in the middle. My badge number is 21341 suggesting this is definitely a move in the right direction, a move that is destined.
So, what does all of this mean? Overall, there is a sense of assurance that this is indeed right for me at this time. For how long, and where next is a completely different matter. However, that is not important right now. It is more important that I didn't burn any bridges. My boss made it clear that he would definitely be interested in having me work for him wherever he goes. The bottom line is that people move on and can cross paths over and over again in the course of a career.
There is definitely a sense that this is the beginning of a new chapter of my life ... perhaps a whole new book for that matter. It will be interesting to see where things go from here. I'm concerned about the tiredness, however. That is becoming tough to deal with much of the time. Staying awake shouldn't be that difficult. Though perhaps it is a sign that I am not staying awake on other fronts as well. It seems that what I need to see, what I need to know is right there in front of me. Of course it would be. How else should we expect the world to work?
It's interesting to see peoples reactions. I've done a lot of good work for a lot of years in my present organization. Much of that I've done independently. But, more and more over the years, I've started to work with others. It will be a major change to let that go. I've become attached not only to some of the work but to some of the people that I work with. Saying goodbye is not such an easy thing to do. Though in this case, it is a necessary thing to do. It is time to move on. I've known it for some time. It was a matter of allowing the universe to manifest the right opportunity. But, I had to take the initiative and apply.
Change in one area of life impacts and is reflected in all areas of life. This is just the beginning of the changes to come. I look forward to them. It is time to get a life. I've never been one to focus on developing relationships. Perhaps in doing so, I've missed the essence of living. I don't need to be as reserved and as isolated as I have been. Yes, it is safe ... but from another perspective, it is my way of withdrawing from or hiding from the world. The world is meant to be engaged, to be lived within ... not to be separated from. One cannot do that when one takes the perspective of the observer most of the time. Though, it is possible to be the observer and to be engaged as the experiencer simultaneously. Everything is ONE. All experiences are the experiences of consciousness. Everything is consciousness. Every rock, and tree, and creature has a life, has a spirit, has a name. That line from Colors of the Wind speaks volumes. So do others from that song. You think that the only people who are people, are people who think and look like you but if you'll walk the footsteps of a stranger, you'll learn some things you never knew you never knew.
Once again, the admonition for your eyes only comes to mind. How much of this is truly for my eyes only? How much of this is some part of me telling another part of me what I need to hear in the moment? And, why am I still so moved to share what is expressed here. There is a sense that there should be no secrets. I would make my life, especially my spiritual life as much of an open book as I can make it. Have I succeeded in doing that? Only time will tell. I can only do as I am moved by consciousness to do.
I AM THAT I AM THAT YOU ARE! Be Happy and Create Well!
LOVE,
Wayne