4 May 93

Once again, it's been over a week since I last found time to write. It's simply amazing how fast time moves when one is busy. But, I do so miss my regular periods of expression. It's very important to take time to document one's thoughts and remain in touch with spirit or source. (at least, it is for me!) And further, to do this on a regular basis.

I'm extremely excited about my forthcoming trip to Colorado. I'm ready to find out where it is that I will live next -- and to start making contact with my soul group. I've been alone for far too long. It's time to rejoin my true family. Further, it's time to counter the ever-increasing pace of events/activity in the world -- especially in California. With things moving so fast, no attention gets paid to what truly matters. The spirit does not move at the pace of events. It distances itself from this frenetic wasted energy. The still place within ... the sounds of silence ... the quiet inner voice ... these are where the soul resides. What matters is consciousness; awareness and presence in each moment; to achieve each day, in each moment, what is appropriate for the soul's expression of its purpose in accord with the Plan.

The measure of each day's utility is in the growth of awareness of consciousness that it brings. All is consciousness. All that is important is consciousness. To be all that one is, and to become all that one is capable of becoming. Such is "the only end of life" as Stevenson says.

More and more, such is what I desire most. To be what I am. To express all that I am, as fully as is possible for my present state of consciousness. My job is to bring Vision down to Earth, to manifest the forms necessary for the physical expression of my Vision of what can be -- no, what must be! This is what I came to do. This is my sole purpose, my soul's purpose.

Writing and expressing ideas is as important to my constitution as my breath -- it is the very breath of my soul. These ideas are the seeds from which the tree of life is made manifest.

Tired now, time to go. To success in Colorado! May the unfoldment of the Plan begin!

13 May 93

Another week gone by! The trip to Colorado was wonderful. Estes Park is it! That's where I belong. Visually, and energetically, it's as close to Heaven as I've experienced on this planet. It was the only place in Colorado that truly spoke to us -- both Gini and I -- that captivated our souls. It is simply incredible -- breathtaking and beautiful beyond compare.

Crestone on the other hand was comparatively dismal. There is almost nothing there yet. My sense is that there will be in the next few years -- and that somehow I am connected with the energy of the Sangre de Christos of that area. But, any close connection lies out sometime in the future. The place is just too isolated, too far from civilization at this time.

14 May 93

It's time to find or create a position in which I can operate more effectively -- applying my gifts in a manner that results in the most benefit/impact, yet providing me with more of the freedom and abundance necessary to support the lifestyle I most prefer.

Ultimately, this lies in walking my talk -- in teaching, and in solving the problems associated with building a community that truly supports personal excellence with elegance.

Colorado calls to my soul. It is time to be more excited about life -- to be fully involved in manifesting a new world order. My work has been a wonderful training ground, preparing me for fulfilling my chosen destiny -- allowing and encouraging me to develop the specific talents needed to achieve what I came here to do. But, I am ready. It is time to emerge from school and apply my talents and abilities in the world toward manifesting the Plan with as much wisdom as I can. The challenge excites me to my very core. Let the adventure begin!

Yes, Wayne. You are aware of what you came here to do. We have been working with you in your sleep -- to connect your system to source, that you may be the channel for energies you were brought forth to express. This process is still in progress, but it will be completed soon. You will not have long to wait. The Plan must unfold, and you have a major role to play with it. Trust your inner guidance. You will know what must be done and when. Tally not. Act decisively in your knowingness. We are proud to be your brethren. It is through you that our joint work may be done. Your choice was a brave one. Not many of us were willing to take on the incarnation that you have chosen. Yet, it was required that a physical vehicle be the means through which this work is done. Spirit in flesh, soul personified in the world to a degree higher than had been experienced before. This is truly a new way of being.

17 May 93

The first step is to get to Colorado. Once there, we can take more time to decide specifically where we will settle. Even then, I feel we should stay flexible -- for, the first place we go may not be the ultimate place we will make our home, and this too may change over time. Something inside me keeps saying that we need to remain "mobile" for awhile, trusting that we will be "moved" to the places (physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual) that are necessary to allow us to manifest our part in the Plan.

It's all a matter of trust -- knowing that Spirit will direct us to the places and circumstances in which to best carry out our assigned missions. The more I think about this, the more excited I get. I've felt like I've been in a major holding pattern for several years -- yet, at the same time, I know that I have grown immensely in awareness and consciousness. I am not the same person I was five years ago, or two, or even one year ago. In particular, my link with Spirit is much stronger, as is my awareness of my chosen mission and destiny, as well as my awareness and confidence in my innate talents and abilities. My ego is still strong, yet it is willing to listen and yield to the voice and power of spirit. I know that it is not my will which is important and must be done, but that of Spirit in accord with the Plan. Not my plans, but The Plan which must be manifest to the best of my abilities and in the proper timing. I selected a major role to play -- it was not forced upon me -- and further, I set myself up with the proper vehicle and abilities with which to succeed, though such success is neither guaranteed nor pre-destined. We create our own reality! On Earth, this is done primarily within the dimensions of physical existence though the seed and force comes from dimensions unseen (mental, emotional, and spiritual).

Things to do, places to go, people to meet. There is a full agenda in store for us in the coming days, weeks, months, and years. By this time next year our lives will not even resemble that which we currently experience. The days will be full beyond belief, for we will be on the path that is right for us, manifesting the life and lifestyle that is most in appropriate for accomplishing our tasks in accord with the plan. There is much to do, and so little time to do it. Yet, the time available is sufficient. But, beware, it is not excessive. So, you must act when the time is right, and move when you are motivated to do so. You will know what is right when the time comes. Trust your inner knowingness. It will not lead you astray -- for there is no time for such wanderings. The planet is undergoing massive transformation. You have a part in ensuring that the consciousness of people on the planet is sufficient to participate fully in this transformation and serve as midwives to the birthing of a New Age -- one in which soul/spirit is more fully expressed in flesh. You would not be here if this were not your chosen lot. It was your choices that brought you here -- not the destiny dictated by some unknown God. It was the will of the god that you are in accord with the Will of All That Is.

Listen more often, and do what you are moved to do. Don't block your expression of truth, of the god within you. Demonstrate spirit in flesh to the greatest degree you can. As you do so, you will expand the vehicle through which you express so that your body can accommodate other energies and vibrations that have not been able to be physical before. Be physical, physical ... as the Olivia Newton John song says. But, this is a dictate to spirit. And, it is one that you could not ignore, even if you were predisposed to do so -- which, as you know, you are not!

Such is the task of one who is self-destined to be the way- shower, one who came to demonstrate a new way of being. It is in your very name, Wayne. You truly have no choice other than to wholly express that which is your birthright. What additional verification do you need? Your mission is written in your name, the stars and planets at your birth, your aura, your character, and in the innate talents that you possess. You know this to be true. You've suspected it for much of your life. There is nothing to fear. You have the full Force of Spirit behind you, if only you will allow it to flow and do its works through you. Trust that all is right. As a channel of Spirit, it is God's work that will be done in accord with the plan. You're responsibility is only to be the truest channel that you can be, of the highest frequencies, and with the greatest capacities -- to express the true Self that you are to your utmost abilities. For this Self, is the part of God that is expressed through you. As a channel of the Force, you are not responsible for outcomes -- you are only responsible for enabling opportunities. Personally, the greatest gift you can give is to be "soul-incarnate" serving as a living example of spirit-in- flesh, manifesting the Plan and reaping the unlimited abundance that is the natural birthright of all. It is through demonstration that spiritual truth is best revealed. We can only truly teach what we are! Walk your talk, and manifest the truth that you speak. In doing so, your light will shine bright to illuminate the way for others. By your example, you will allow many to see their own light -- and to walk in accord with that light that is uniquely theirs, in turn, illuminating not only their own way, but the way for others in their sphere of influence as well. Through such interaction, will all the world shine bright -- and the Earth itself will be lifted into a new density and vibration.

28 May 93

As to reading, I finished Maverick Mind, Pennick's Little Red Book on Golf, and am halfway through Gore's book -- Earth in the Balance. All three are good. The last two are excellent! From Pennick's book, I need to spend much more time practicing the short game.

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