1 Aug 93

Well, the start of a new month. Set a goal of writing at least two pages per day this month in addition to working on my book. This is a high priority task! If I am to be a writer, there is no other way; I must write and write and write some more. The more the channel is open, the more fluid the flow will be. Practice, practice, practice. Such is what makes one outstanding at anything ... especially those things for which one has a natural talent. Writing has always been one of those areas for me. I don't remember a time when I could not write, and I don't remember having to learn how to do it. With both writing, and mathematics, the process has always be easy. No straining was ever required.

The possibilities for the Meadowdale Ranch Conference Center are exciting. Between a school, one or more stores, a restaurant, a motel/lodge, doing bookings of seminars/classes for the conference center, finding antiques for all the rooms, selling antiques at retail and wholesale (possibly at auction as well), and maintaining the overall grounds; there could be more than enough paying work for everyone. If, in addition, more houses and/or condo-like quarters could be built as well, this would be absolutely ideal. Further, the overall community lifestyle would be wonderful for all. This definitely provides a means for actualizing what Jan Karts said: first, design the lifestyle; then, do the work necessary to support the lifestyle. This would also provide a demonstration for Californians (and others, of course) of how life could be -- instead of the current pattern of being so overwhelmed with the bills of excessive material consumption, that working two jobs is necessary just to make ends meet. There is definitely a better way, an easier way that provides more true value and satisfaction at much lower cost in terms of stress level, time, resources, and energy. Then again, even more energy may be required ... but, it will come from an inexhaustible stream from source to which each will be connected.

It's extremely exciting to see the dream so close to manifestation. Very soon, life will be the wonderful journey it is meant to be. The benefits of cooperative interdependence will be demonstrated in a manner that cannot be refuted. For, as with Herbalife, the direct experiences of the participants will be so powerful that the individuals involved will not be able to contain their enthusiasm. They will actively engage others with such an intensity and lovingness that their energy and state will be simply contagious. Through such endeavors, a world will be reborn ... the phoenix will rise again from the ashes, and the civilization that results will experience a golden age beyond all others; one that will last for a millennium. The glory of spirit manifest in flesh, fully cognizant of not only it's powers, but also it's responsibility for their beneficial use. Service will be the order of the day, with all using their unique talents and abilities for the good of not only themselves but their brethren as well. From each in accord with their abilities, to each in accord with their true needs. This will only work in an environment where each individual has personal awareness of a deep and intimate connection with spirit.

The time is right for this to be manifest, now. I know it will work. The Vision is extremely clear, vibrant with life. The foundation will soon be complete on the inner planes. The remaining step for making this physical is a relatively small step, one that can be easily taken given the right motivation, desire, and intent. Given that this is the part of the endeavor for which I am responsible, success is nearly assured. For, I know that I will fulfill my part to the utmost of my talents and abilities -- which are more than sufficient for the task at hand. The only variable is in how I communicate the Vision to others, so that they become infused with their own visions and start applying their own energies toward activity in accord with the Plan. Much remains to be done. The key is to take it one step at a time, for each step on it's own is easy; yet, each step is critical to the overall path as well. The journey begins!

2 Aug 93

As Bob and I were leaving to Golf @ Salinas, we saw a multicolored cloud in the sky. I'd never seen anything like it. The cloud was very wispy ... you could see through most of it ... but, the colors were brilliant, spread as if by a prism. It was spectacular! Tried to take a picture, but my camera was out of film -- 25 on a roll of 24. Unfortunately, I don't think I was able to capture it. It would have made a remarkable picture, definitely something that could have been sold ... high quality stuff. In the future, I need to make sure I have film in the camera, and a spare role as well. Who knows when these kinds of opportunities will show themselves. I need to be ready to act upon these gifts of the gods.

Gini got more information about the Meadowdale Ranch Conference Center. It keeps looking better and better. The more details we get, the more perfect it seems. The property can be split into 4 ten acre parcels, and houses could be built on each parcel! This is the ideal place for making the dreams of community come true. Further, the property is zoned for a variety of business activities. This definitely seems like the place where the Vision of Beyond Imagination is translated into physical reality! Wow! I can hardly wait.

3 Aug 93

Read through the information package. It still feels like the ideal place for doing the real work that I came to do. The layout is perfect. There are many possibilities for generating income that could sustain at least 8-10 people plus pay for the property and all utilities.

If we can find other people to split the ranch into three equal shares, our commitment would only be $300K. If we could come up with $100K down, that would leave payments on a mortgage of $200K, approximately $1500 per month. For this, we would have so much ... a house, a third of 38 acres, and several business opportunities on-site that could yield substantial incomes. Yes, it will be a lot of work. But, the rewards will be so much greater as well. Our payments will still be less than half of what we are currently committed to. Further, we would have the chance to live among the people that we choose, having our friends as neighbors -- cooperatively interdependent on one another. I cannot imagine a better set of circumstances and conditions under which to live. This is definitely the opportunity of a lifetime. It has been put in front of us for a reason. It is well within reach, we only need to make the choice to go for it. From my perspective, there is nothing to lose and a whole world to gain. We can make anything work that we choose to put our energies into. Here, we have the chance to establish a sanctuary ... a sacred place in which to demonstrate how to more effectively manifest spirit in flesh. To hell with the fears. We must have the courage to live our lives as we would create them. The time is here for initiative, for taking bold and decisive action. We are walking onto new land, venturing into unknown territory. We must rely on our strengths and band together with our true family to create the world in which we desire to live. I see no other way for making it through the changing times that are coming. This is to be a grand adventure. Let us joyfully make it so. So let it be written. So let it be done!

I feel very strongly about this. I don't want to let another year pass by without moving in the directions necessary to achieve my mission on this planet. I must establish a school and community that provides a laboratory for physically expressing the designs and patterns of my Vision. The Meadowdale Ranch Conference Center feels like the right place for doing exactly this. My heart tells me to act on this quickly. The portal is open ... we must go through before it closes again. It is not clear when the next opening might come.

The more I think about it, the more I know that this is the right move to make. There is no doubt that this property came into my awareness in this manner as a sign/gift from the universe. There are no coincidences. Further, this is really the only property in the area that caught my interest. None of the houses listed had anything especially attractive about them other than that they were relatively low cost. This ranch, however, caught my imagination and touched my soul. Everything about it seems perfect -- the location, the amount of land, the buildings, the business potential, the overall layout, the zoning, the splitability into 10 acre parcels. Even the numbers in the name are perfect for being the place where beyond imagination can be manifest.

The very thought of it excites me to the deepest level of my being. There is so much to express, so much to make so. Yet, it is not me alone, but me as part of a larger group both physical and non-physical that is required for the Plan to unfold. We are so close to living the dream and manifesting the Vision. Make it so! Make it so! Such is the directive that drives me and reverberates through my entire being. It is time! Finally, it is time!

Decide, then make it so. Such is what the voice within me states so strongly. Once the decision is made, the details will work out accordingly. There is no power on earth that can stop the unfoldment of events in accord with the Plan. However, personal choices dictate the manner and the timing in which the unfoldment will occur. It is critical that we make the right choice now, and do not hesitate or hold back on commitment. For, what we are committed to do, we will indeed achieve -- for the level of spirit flowing through us is of such a magnitude that no obstacle can block its way. We are but the vehicle through which the work will be done.

4 Aug 93

Gini is still having second thoughts about why we want to take on all the work and responsibility that would go with the Meadowdale Ranch Conference Center. However, she has decided that it would work if we had two other partners.

I've been thinking about how to make the finances and living arrangement fair, especially considering that there is only one house on the property.

• One solution would be to make the rents for various types of living quarters different, based on the amount and quality of the space the occupy.

• The house could rent for $2000. The managers quarters of the motel units for $1000, and other units/rooms for less.

• Rents would be put into a joint account from which the mortgage payment, taxes, utilities, and other expenses are paid.

• Similarly, if parts of the buildings on the property are used for businesses, these should be rented by the square foot as well.

• Again, all rents would be put into the joint account.

• Utility costs would be shared via percentage of use between individuals and any businesses on the property. Businesses would treat this as an expense. Individuals would be responsible for their parts just as they would be in the outside world.

• Individuals should be compensated for the work they do on the property. I'd prefer to have a set hourly wage that everyone is paid, regardless of the specific type of work. I think something like $10 an hour might be a reasonable wage for this. It would apply to labor of all types: cleaning, yard work, maintenance, painting, managing the motel, managing the conference center, working in the store, etc ... Creative work or outside work done on one's own time (not at the $10 per hour wage) would be separately compensated based on the income that it brings in of it's own. With about 2000 hours per year this would amount to $20K per year -- not great, but fair considering the low overall living costs and the potential for other income from a variety of work done on or off the premises.

• Any profits made by businesses run from the joint property would go into the joint account to be applied against expenses, and to serve as a reserve for improvements. If sufficient profits accrue, the partners may decide to use part of the profits as a dividend or income bonus that would be distributed equally between the partners.

• At some point, we may want to expand this to a share concept -- where number of shares is based on investment into the endeavor -- e.g., one share per $100 invested. This would allow others to buy into the endeavor as well. Profits would then be calculated for distribution based on the percentage of shares that each individual held. Further, this would allow shares to be exchanged -- i.e. bought or sold. However, speculation should be avoided by establishing a set price per share. Also, before existing shares are sold to any non-share holders; first, the corporation should have the opportunity to by them back; second, any shareholders interested in buying them should have the opportunity. Order of priority could be determined by seniority, lottery, or some other means.

• All members should be given the opportunity to provide services in accord with their abilities. There should be enough work available that each individual can work for up to 2000 hours for the endeavor, if they so choose. Also, there should be a minimum amount of service that each individual provides for the benefit of the endeavor. My initial feel is that 10 hours per week would be reasonable, but, it may need to be higher to assure that the needs of the community are met Because of this, membership should be limited to what the endeavor/community is capable of sustaining. There may also be work that is less than desirable that still needs to be done. Responsibility for such work will be equally split between the members. They may discharge their responsibility by doing it themselves, offering to pay other members to do it, or paying for outside help to come in to do it -- in that order.

This is much easier than I thought it would be. Most of this is common sense kind of stuff, doing what is fair for all concerned. It will be easy to manage as long as individuals keep their own needs in check, and respect the needs of others, and of the community as a whole. All members should be ready and willing to offer help and/or assistance and service whenever and wherever it is needed. There has to be a balance maintained between what individuals take from the community and what they give back! Service in should exceed service out, with rare exception. It may be necessary to allow past or future service to be expended in lieu of present service at times, e.g. sickness.

5 Aug 93

It feels strange not having time to write during the day. I was getting used to taking at least a half hour or so to write a page or more. It is rapidly becoming a habit that I look forward to. There is something about being able to express myself in writing that has always been exciting and fulfilling for me. Now, this is true more than ever. Perhaps, it is because I feel freer when I write than at any other time. I can express my mind and feelings without worrying about how anyone will react. However, at some point, I need to be writing stuff that will be read by someone other than myself. These notes may survive me to give someone more insight into who and what I was -- how I thought and what I felt. Right now, all I know is that it is extremely important to have this vehicle for expression ... at least for the time being.

It's fun to get into the flow. Even more so when I can slip into an altered state for awhile. I definitely need to do that more often. There is much to bring through, both from deeper parts of myself and from spirit. This vehicle has a lot of potential for bringing some wonderful ideas, concepts, and Vision through ... so that they can be physically manifest.

A sacred place in which to express my Vision is crucial. I must live where the concepts of community can be explored, experimented with, and demonstrated. If spirit is to be more fully expressed in flesh ... then it must be done through group activity. No one form or being has sufficient abilities to contain or sustain as much flow from spirit as multiple individuals acting in cooperative interdependence. Very little has yet been done in this area. Thus far, most organizations have not provided the proper environment and circumstances for the synergy of the whole to come through. There has been far too much waste and inefficiency in the organizational structure ... such that the bureaucracy hinders rather than enhances effective functioning.

Colorado still calls to my soul. I know that it is where I need to be, and soon. I'm ready to start working full time on what it is that I came here to do. This requires having the right group of people around me as well. The Meadowdale Ranch appears to be the place to do this. Everything we've heard about it so far is great.

7 Aug 93

Had a long talk with Gini last night about a lot of things. She doesn't really want to live in a community. Unlike me, she's had more than her fill of dealing with people. She wants to get away so that she only has to deal with whom she chooses, when she chooses. She is very hesitant about committing to anything that she sees as a financial stretch, or a lot of work. Further, she doesn't see me doing what I feel I must do. She doesn't think I have the people skills or teamwork skills to make a joint activity, partnership, or community work. Further, she doesn't believe that I have enough business knowledge/skills to make an endeavor like the Meadowdale Ranch Conference Center work. She wants to see things progress slowly, one step at a time. I don't see that there is sufficient time to allow this.

I see things working at deeper levels then she does, driven by intuition and inner promptings that there is more to do, a mission to fulfill in this lifetime. I see members of my spiritual planning being drawn together out of a common desire to participate in manifesting a Vision in accord with the Plan. I don't sense that Gini has this kind of connection with a larger Vision. Her comments indicate that she does not understand me, or believe my Dream either. I told her of not feeling that Society recognizes the gifts and talents of individuals ... its very structures are not supportive of using these gifts and talents effectively. Individuals are lumped into basic skill groups, with the individual members of the groups interchangeable. One engineer is just like any other engineer, a plumber a Plumber, a secretary a Secretary. The sameness is emphasized while the uniqueness of individual talents is lost. This is extremely wasteful! Gini sees me as very selfish and self-centered. She interpreted this to mean that I feel that I am not recognized, and that I have this huge Ego need to be worshipped or something. She doesn't see that this comes from a genuine concern for people, and for creating a new way of life that will be the foundation for community in the future ... the foundation for cooperative interdependence that focuses on how individuals can retain their uniqueness yet join together to build the supportive conditions in which the group can thrive as well.

Gini literally called me a communist! It's not like this at all. I don't belief everything should be pooled together and split evenly. There have to be incentives to get people to push themselves to the limits -- to operate at the optimum levels for which they are capable not only for their own good, but for the higher good of all as well. Individuals must recognize their connectedness to All That Is ... this includes to every person that enters their life and awareness.

This brings out the importance of getting my book written. It is the key, the foundation. It is where the crucial set of ideas gets expounded that will light or fan the flame of the fire in others who have come at this time to be a part of this endeavor. I see my role as the teacher, the guide, the counselor, the one through whom the Vision is expressed, the shower of the Way. But, alone, there is no way for me to make this manifest. This requires the cooperative work of many toward a larger purpose. Initially, many may be as few as 10-12; but, within a few years, this could easily grow to hundreds and possibly thousands.

I think Gini is now convinced that we could make the ranch work. Income from the six units alone in addition to the $2500 per month that we put in, would be enough to cover all the major expenses. This would give Ashley and Leo the managers quarters to live in for free in exchange for their $100K investment. Similarly, a third investor could have free quarters on the property somewhere, perhaps in the dormitory area, perhaps converting part of the kitchen/dining bldg, perhaps converting part of the conference center. This still leaves about 6000 sq ft of room for various business endeavors -- retreat and conference center, seminars/classes, school, store, antique storage/auction/sales, etc ... plus it leaves nearly 28 open acres of space on which to do other things -- splitting into 10 acre parcels and building additional houses, farming/greenhouse, additional cabins, or whatever. I know this could be made to work very easily! Further, it would not require a lot of work to sustain, especially if the people that are brought in come in with the right sets of beliefs, skills, and attitudes. This is the perfect place for realizing the Vision of cooperative interdependent living on a relatively small, yet self-sufficient basis. It could provide a prototype for many other communities of this type that might then exchange members on temporary or permanent bases in the future. This would give individuals some mobility, and would allow different groups to have different focuses and emphasis, depending on the needs and desires of their constituent members. Also, the overall economy of providing many services on a group scale vs an individual or family scale would be readily apparent to all. By cooperating, everyone has access to more than they would have before, and at lower cost. Further, the community environment allows for the fulfillment of emotional, mental, and spiritual needs of individuals in a much more effective manner than current society allows.

Just as with Herbalife, the proof is in the doing and seeing the results that come. Until one commits to making a lifestyle change, and trying it for a trial period to see what its effects truly are, there is no way to know exactly what these will be in one's life. Seeing the changes that Herbalife has brought to my body, health, energy level, and physical self-image; I could not imagine going back to the way I was before. I feel that the same will be true with cooperative interdependent living. The happiness and the fulfillment that comes from living in this manner will be so much greater that it will be just as difficult to ever going back to living in the current manner. I know this to be true. This sense comes from the depth of my being.

The opportunity is before us, here and now. This is the chance of a lifetime. I cannot bear to see it pass without taking advantage of it. It has presented itself to us at this time for a reason. We have drawn it into our reality. The choice is ours to make -- and the choice we make will determine much about how the immediate future will unfold. My sense is that I must do this! For, I do not feel that I will be given another opportunity of this magnitude. Already, I have allowed nearly three years to elapse without really moving in the directions that I know that I must move in. I missed a great opportunity about three years ago. Here I am, at a similar decision point. My knowingness is that I have already made this choice. The bottom line is that pursuing my Dream is the most important thing in my life right now, period. I must do what I came to do, and I cannot allow anyone or anything to get in the way.

I have no regrets. The changes of the last five years were necessary to prepare me for the times to come. They have provided me the opportunity for much growth that may not have otherwise occurred in so effective of a manner. I take with me all that I have learned, all I know about myself, others, and the nature of reality creation. Further, my connection with source is greater than it has ever been before -- as is my commitment to achieving the mission for which I came forth into this existence. I know that I have the ability, talents, drive and motivation to channel the Vision into manifestation in accord with the Plan. Further, I know that I will have the time of my life in the endeavor. What more could one ask for?

8 Aug 93

Interesting horoscope today. "Follow hunch, trust your own judgement, intuition. Take initiative in getting to heart of matters. Decision reached concerning property, home, finances, marital status. Sagittarian plays major role." This is right in line with the stuff I was thinking about yesterday, and some of the conclusions and decisions made. Interesting ... how appropriate! It really does hit on everything that's really important.

Actually, this would occur much more frequently if I would pay more attention to the events and material/information that come into my life each day. The web is highly interconnected. These connections will become more and more obvious to me in the coming days.

The whole of my energies must be directed toward this purpose, for there is much that I must bring through. The Vision is there, shining brightly before my eyes, my mind, and my consciousness. I am the vehicle through which the message will be brought and made manifest in the world ... not the only vehicle, but definitely a major one. I have always been aware of my uniqueness and specialness. I have always felt this intense separation from others, knowing that I am not like them, that I chose to come forth to express a higher spiritual purpose than most. It is as Jan Kertz said, I have done things because that is what people do on this planet, in this society. But, for the most part, my Heart has not been fully engaged. It is in the solitary realm of ideas that has been my true love and true home for as long as I can remember. In this realm I soar freely as in no other. Here lies my excitement, my enthusiasm, my very lust for life. I am here to manifest Vision. I know it! It resonates the very depths of my being. However, for the Vision to be made manifest, it must be expressed regularly to a group of special beings who came to take care of the details of building the foundations for the new age of Aquarius. I came as the Way Shower. But, the practical work of making the way real for the greater whole on this planet is the task of these others.

My sensing is that the time is becoming shorter and shorter. We must get on with it, and soon, if this phase of the plan is to be achieved. There is no further time for delay. The time has come for demonstrating the Way of Knowing ... the way that will be predominant for the next millennium. The time of transformation is here, it is now. The world is about to go through a series of changes that are without precedence on this planet. They have occurred on other worlds, at other times, ... but, even on that scale they are relatively rare events. Many from these other worlds are aware of this momentous occasion, and are observing, and/or assisting with the transformation; for the ramifications of the changes will impact their worlds as well. This is not the kind of change that one can keep confined within ones one backyard you know. Further, with the changes will also come a knowledge of and relationship with beings that are "extraterrestrial" in your terminology. In fact, all beings are extraterrestrial. It is only the current physical forms that are so tied to your earth. From our sensings, much of this will be revealed in the coming three to four years. The specific timing being dependent on the choices made within the mass consciousness. Because of the rapidity with which this is shifting, foretelling of specific timing is not possible. Much depends on what choices are made, when the choices are made, and how specific activity is applied toward the appropriate desired ends. Literally, you are living through a time when reality creation is experienced at an intimate level that is more direct than at any other time in recent memory. The rate at which ideas are translated into the physical reality of your world is rapidly increasing; to the point where many things are out of control. It is Vision that is the key to developing the structures needed to achieve the required balance for the golden age to come.

Vision, vision, vision! The very focus of my life and energies must be on bringing it forth, as precisely and fluidly as is possible at this time. Much rides on this activity. The potential that it will allow to be unleased is truly beyond imagination. Many individuals await the call that will literally change their lives, charging them with a new purpose and enthusiasm that in turns allows there light to shine brighter and enlighten the world around them. They already have the right abilities, drive, and spiritual focus/connection. They await someone to show them the Way, to direct their energies toward greater accomplishment in accord with the Plan.

Finish your book. Get your ideas down in writing; for these will provide the core around which the Vision will come. The initial group that is attracted will create the antenna that will allow the higher frequencies to be amplified and grounded enabling you to connect with source and serve as the channel for their physical expression, at least in verbal form. The synergy of the group is essential in this process. It is the critical element that allows it all to happen. Don't underestimate it's value. For without it, the Plan cannot be achieved. No individual has the capacity for bringing this message through on their own. It can only come forth from the unity of many acting as one. Some amount of trial and effort will be necessary to find the right combination of both individuals and the roles and structure in which they participate. Not to worry; for, some who are attracted to this endeavor will already have experimented in this area. Creative modification of some of their techniques and methods will be sufficient as a starting point. Intuitively, you will know where to start and what must be adapted. From there, fine tuning based on observation of results will be all that is needed. Trust your intuition. We cannot state this strongly enough. You will know. All that is required is for you to allow this knowingness to express itself naturally. It is your gift. Remember this. It has been given unto you to see and to know, it is woven into the fabric of your essence. Purple is the Vision color.

Live your life as your intuition directs. Follow the Vision that is shown to you. To do otherwise is to deny your birthright and mission, and literally to make waste of your life. You are not to be concerned with consequences. Process is everything. Live each moment to its fullest, expressing yourself fully in all that you do. Be wary of commitments that detract you from your true work. You will know what these are by how they feel. Those activities that energize you, that excite you, that fill your life with meaning ... these are what you are meant to do. Those that consume your energies and dampen your spirits, avoid as the phrase goes "like the plague". You will naturally know what these are as well, if you will but listen to the voices that come from your core being.

Watch your rhythms, and maximize use of your time during the various cycles. Over time, you will find what states are most conducive to what activities. Use this knowledge to optimize your output. Focus on activities that are aligned with your states/cycles. Remember, elegance is a prime directive for you. This requires doing the task at hand in the optimal manner and at the appropriate time. Use your intuition to guide you in the right direction. You will naturally know what these are. It would do you well to meditate more often, too. Through such activity, you will further open the channels for spirit to flow.

We would also advise that you get to Colorado as soon as you can -- definitely this year, but the sooner the better. You will find the energy there much lighter, allowing you to connect more directly with source, and hence to bring through the message that much more quickly. The very air will vibrate with energy, activating the subtle bodies within you in a manner in which they have rarely experienced before. Your powers will increase manyfold, surprising even you with the quality and quantity of output that results. In many ways, you will be a different person than you are now ... for, you will be operating at a level that is far beyond where others have seen you operate. Let their surprise be a sign to you that you are on the right path, doing exactly what you need to be doing. Look within to find the confirmation that you seek. Trust that you will know, for indeed you will. As the days roll by, you're confidence will increase even more. This will deter some, but do not allow this to get in your way.

Should you choose, it is very possible for you to be directly driven by Spirit. In coming from such a center, you will be able to do works far beyond those which your self is capable of doing. (self => Self => Spirit) Allow this transformation to come forth naturally. It is not something you have to work on ... allowance is the key. The true way of Heart is simple. It only requires you to be "whom that you truly are".

You know this, already. Take the risk and jump. You will not regret you choice. For, you will be happier in doing this work than you have ever experienced in this existence; in fact, than in many of you're prior existences. You came to do this work in accord with the Plan. Had you not been excited by the challenge, you would not have incarnated in this manner at this time. You know this. It resonates within you. You have always had the ability to know truth when it is presented to your consciousness. This ability is one that took many incarnations to develop. Because of this, it is only found in old souls; and, you my friend are a very old soul indeed. At 35, you are finally ready to fully realize this, and get on with the real work you came to do.

Bring forth the Vision of Aslan, Wayne. For, in doing so, you will not only allow the Plan to unfold but you will be given the opportunity to merge your consciousness into the greater whole as well -- to realize the part of Aslan that you are; and, further, to join and be as one with it.

9 Aug 93

Another busy day! Didn't have any time to stop and write at all. Less than five minutes left before it's time to go home. I definitely need to make appropriate changes to get rid of the long commute. It simply eats up too much time that could be put to more productive use. Enough is enough. I've been doing this for over four years, already.

Read more of the Yoga book this morning. It's outstanding! Very clear and concise ... yet, it contains such vast wisdom. Vivekananda truly was a wise man and an excellent channel for the flow of spiritual knowledge.

Very soon I need to be using free time for book writing and back off on some of the day-to-day journal stuff. Both are important, but the book must take priority. It is crucial to finish it fairly soon so the ideas can get out into the world and start bringing in the individuals that are meant to be part of this great endeavor. The core group must be established prior to the summer of next year. It is a destiny year for me, one in which much work must be completed. After that, there is only about five years left ... only half of a decade. If these are allowed to go by as fast as the previous five, the work will barely have time to start; much less be completed. This I cannot allow. My commitment is firm; and, what I am committed to ... that will be done, whatever it takes!

I still feel that the sooner I get to Colorado the better. To some degree, I still feel trapped here. Also, the pacific nature of the ocean is very draining to me. It is as if I'm still running in slow gear. There is so much more I know could be accomplished if the energy from the locale was supportive of a higher sustained degree of activity. Come to think of it, for most of my life I have lived within 30 miles of the coast. Further, within 50 miles of the Pacific Ocean. No wonder I'm having such a difficult time expressing all the fire in my astrological makeup. The calming and settling effects have left me near comatose. It is time to wake up, and express all that is locked up inside, and has been for most of my 35 years. "From deep within the Dragon's lair, treasures behold to share." Yes, it is time to unleash these treasures from the lair, and share them in the light of day. The time for manifestation is here. The Vision must be enfleshed and made physical. I have come to show the way. This, indeed, I must do ... and do so soon. Very soon, indeed. It's as if the forces are frozen, awaiting the Light that would free them to do their works in the world. I am to be a part of this, I know I am.

The voice inside tells me that I have yet to experience the power, the Love, and the Light that will flow through me once the fire is awakened and allowed its full expression. For, the heat of this fire will consume all that I have been in but an instant. And, from the ashes of this former self -- a new Self will be enfleshed. The transformation time is nearly come, yea it is nigh. The Phoenix is ready to arise and soar to heights that are beyond imaginings, yea beyond imagination itself. Then knowingness will be established as the Way -- and much that has been hidden will be revealed. Then peace will come and a new age may be born, but only after much of the current way of being is laid to ashes. Know this, for yea these times will come as we forewarn. Follow the intuition which is given unto you. It will lead you to exactly where you need to be. Further, it will guide you to do the things that you are meant to do in accord with the Plan.

It appears that the coming years will be very intense indeed. It is exciting to be part of all this. To realize what I came to do, and to choose to carry it out swiftly regardless of the consequences. I'm here to offer the world a chance to move in a direction that is conducive to its highest good and greatest rate of evolution. But the window of opportunity is brief, a period of only a few years. Yet the events that unfold will set the stage for the new millennium. Literally, they will determine the very pattern that will define the next 1000 years. The responsibility is great, but the burden is light -- for it is Light which will carry it. I am but a messenger of Light, a shower of the Way. It is the Light itself which does the work. Yet, the Light requires a physical vehicle for its full expression in the dimensions of matter and flesh. May the channel be made pure, that the highest vibrations may be brought forth ... for, in these dark times only those vibrations carry the energy required to bring about the transformation.

39782 = 29/11. Appropriate, very appropriate. 12+9+7+8+20 = 56/11. Hum, for some reason I was expecting 47, the vibration of Aslan (1+19+12+1+14). I'll have to look up the specific significance of 56/11. Further Aslan = 11315 = 11 = 15131 = Jesus. Note the same vibrational makeup. Though, the harmonics are slightly different ... the five vibration is higher in Aslan, but the overall 1 vibrations and 3 vibration are lower -- the difference between 74 and 47.

Wayshower = 517186559 = 47/11. Aslan = the Wayshower!

Very interesting how numerology allows such connections to be found. It reveals a code that carries hidden meaning at deeper levels of the psyche. Much of this happens automatically in the very way we sense and feel the world. It is all encoded within the physics of vibrations. Very interesting, indeed. Master = 411259 = 22. Teacher = 2513859 = 33. These master numbers keep showing up in my life. They have great significance.

It's as if numerology speaks the language of my soul. There is a deeply intuitive aspect in making these connections. It's an elementary kind of arithmetic, basic and foundational. My sense is that it offers even more keys -- if I will but allow them to be revealed. This is definitely why mathematics came so easily to me. 41285412931 = 40.

12 Aug 93

Read more of the Yoga book by Vivekananda. It's still wonderful stuff ... very well thought out and expressed. Also, scanned through the Prophecies of Nostradamus book. Some of his predictions from the 15th century are very accurate, indeed. Translation is a bit rough, and things must be interpreted from his Catholic world view -- but the poetic imagery is amazingly accurate for one who had no real reference point from which to understand and describe the inventions and way of living that technological progress would bring about in the centuries to come. His vision spanned over a time frame of nearly 600 years, maybe more.

I still feel a need to get to Colorado ASAP. It's becoming more and more important as the days, weeks, and months go by. And they pass so quickly! The ranch still seems to be the ideal location for starting to do the real work I came to do. I know everything will work out right. I'd just like to see it work out soon. I'm tired of waiting. The time is here to start a new lifestyle ... one that is very different from what I have experienced thus far in my life. Relationships and interaction with others is becoming more and more important. Yet, at the same time, my self-reliance is asserting itself to a greater degree than ever. I must be wary of counting too much on others, and making my happiness in any way dependent on what they choose or choose not to do. I must be happy of my own accord, and not by the actions or non-actions of others.

I'm still finding it difficult to stay focused on my NPT work. There is so much other stuff that is more fun, exciting, interesting, and life-supporting (light-supporting) to me. I need to be doing the things that I am most excited about -- the things that truly evoke my passion. For, these things will ultimately have the most impact, both on myself and the world.

As always, metaphysics must be the focus. It is in this domain that my heart sings and that my soul soars. Philosophy, and the nature of soul and reality call to me more than anything else, even life itself. Ideas are my true home, my realm of expression -- the place where I can be myself, and express "whom that I am", "Whom that I AM", "I AM".

13 Aug 93

I haven't really begun my book dictation yet. I should have some time tomorrow, and then on Sunday again as well. I need to get into a writing mood and see exactly how much I can do in what period of time. At this point, I do not really know exactly how long it will take. If I can get a few data points on how many pages I can generate in how many hours -- I'll be able to make a rough estimate of how many hours it will take to finish the book. Then, it's a matter of focusing and expending my free time on getting it done.

I weighed in at 188 this morning, so I should have been down to at least 185 or better after the golf round. I'll check my weight for the week when I get home after my round tomorrow. I've been on Herbalife nearly two months now and my weight is getting close to hovering around 185. That's 25 pounds less than when I started. Many people are noticing the difference. I look and feel much better than I have in a long time. I used to struggle for weeks to get down to 184 so that I could pass my Air Force weight checks each year. It's been nearly ten years since I was under 185 on a relatively regular basis! I'm very close to being there now. Further, there's no sign yet that the weight loss is near to completion. The rate of change has slowed down, but the pounds are still dropping. The inches are continuing to melt away as well. Right now, I intend to keep it going until a reach my natural set point, wherever that may be.

A new body, a new location, a new house, a new life. Wow, what a change in such a relatively short time. The only thing missing is a new job, and that is sure to follow within a year or so. So let it be written. So let it be done! For, it is clearly within my power to make it so. Literally, it is up to me ... my choice, my decision, my responsibility.

14 Aug 93

It's already a new day, even if it is only just past midnight. I'm excited about the round of golf that lies ahead. Already the vibration of the day feels different. It's very positive. I'm looking forward to operating at a nearly unconscious level of excellence. All I truly need to do is trust, trust that I have the ability to do anything I envision. Then, it's all a matter of tuning in and following my intuition -- allowing myself to operate as if I'm on automatic, and enjoying the results as much as I can. The only obstacle is my own self. I'll be outstanding if only I stay out of my own way, especially consciously.

Went to dinner with Art, Linda, and Ashley at A La Carte. The piano player, the food, and the conversation were great. I really like Linda, she's a real kick to be around. I sense a familiarity with her that is very uncommon in my experience. I sense that she is one of the members of my true family. Perhaps we were together in Egypt in times past. There seems to be that kind of connection. Anyway, I thoroughly enjoy her company.

Linda mentioned that to me that she wanted to attend my school! It made me feel great. It was obvious that she really meant it. What a wonderful acknowledgement and encouragement. I need to get busy and make this so. I sense there are several others that will feel this way as well. It is time. I could not think of a better way to live and a better type of work. To help others full time through teaching -- especially kindred spirits with whom I'm personally attuned -- what better life could I ask to lead. Further, the great works that will come from this group will be wondrous to behold. Oh, to be a part of this. And further, to be the one who shows the way and brings forth the Vision. What an opportunity! The very thought of it sends shivers down my spine. To finally be doing the work that I came to do! We need to get to Colorado quickly. I don't want this feeling to get away again. It is time. It is definitely time.

I must complete my book soon. It is to be the foundation, the spark that attracts those who are meant to be a part of this. It is the first step in bringing the Vision forth into expression. Ok, I've talked about this long enough. The time for action is here, it is now.

15 Aug 93

I have very limited experience with relationship with others in this existence. My focus for literally all of my life has been on my relationship with Self. Generally, I get along well with others because the peace lover in me prefers not to make waves. Further, judgement of others is a rare behavior for me. My normal mode of dealing with people is to accept them for whom they are and to offer guidance and assistance where I can. I fancy myself to be somewhat of a wise old man, a philosopher and dreamer ready to offer my teachings to those who are ready for the lessons they have to offer.

There is a lesson for me in all of this. Part of it involves figuring out what it takes to be self-sufficient -- what I can do make myself happy regardless of what others do and what circumstances or events come my way. I am what I am. That must be enough. I can enjoy interacting with others and sharing my life -- but, to a large degree, I must be able to disassociate myself from things and outer experiences. Detachment is the key. I am to do what I must do, without regard for the results or consequences. The Vision must be brought forth!

16 Aug 93

Feeling better today. But, still somewhat tired. I'm not getting enough sleep. Didn't go to bed until midnight, then had to wake up at 5:30. Watched the movie "A League of Their Own". It was outstanding! Geena Davis performance in particular was superb.

I'm still finding it difficult to stay focused on my Loral work. There is so much else that I want to do that truly excites me. It is definitely time for another major change. Although, as we are currently planning things, even with the move and dramatic financial changes, I'll still have to work for Loral for awhile until I can get something else going that will replace the income. At least the motivation will be stronger once we finally move. I've been waiting for this for over two years! It's definitely time. By October, the long commute to Monterey must be done with. Not that the commute to/from Colorado will be any easier, but at least it will only be once per week or so. Maybe even every other week.

Interesting fortune today, "Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst." I wonder why I needed to hear that now. The initial thought that crossed my mind was pertaining to the major Earth changes that are to occur in the coming few years. I talked with Linda about these on Thursday. She did not feel that California would be drastically impacted. I warned her to be ready to move quickly when her intuition tells her it is time to go. It's fine to enjoy each day, taking in all that the California weather and lifestyle have to offer. At the same time, the contingency plans should be in place so that when the changes come one is prepared to fight, flee, or go with the flow. I feel this is the connection that the message was intended to trigger.

I'm a bit concerned about Gini's state and frame of mind. She is in a place that is fully supportive of moving to Estes Park; but, we are far from agreement about what we really want to do once we get there. It's as if Gini wants to run away, get free of the financial burden, and settle into a relatively low cost house where she doesn't have to deal with people and has no real responsibilities. She wants to be able to do creative work, and interact with people on her own terms. There is no sense of purpose, mission, or need to provide some service to others. She is very tired overall -- overworked and underpaid. Yet, she hasn't realized that much of this has to do with the worth she has set for herself. The universe is compensating her in a manner that is appropriate for the value she has placed on her time and services. Gini doesn't understand that this is direct feedback from the universe that she should be using to adjust what she is doing and how she is doing it.

It seems so obvious. Why doesn't she see this? At the same time, what is being reflected back to me in this area? What does my experience tell me about the way I am living my life? For, it is surely reflected back to me, just as it is to Gini. Hmm, interesting ... I'll have to think about that for awhile and see what knowingness comes forth. This would be a good meditation/exercise for the ride home tonight. I sense that the message is very important -- and that the realization that it brings will be a major step forward.

The winters in Colorado may be cold and brisk, but the change of seasons will be a welcome relief. Also, I have always felt much more energy there -- the very air is charged. The weather is extremely changeable as well. I'm sure we'll adapt easily and just love it. We have experienced several days of cold in Colorado Springs and got through it fine. It was even fun.

18 Aug 93

Still thinking about the Herbalife business opportunity. The trick is investing in your downline to promote as many people to Supervisor as you can. This cuts your profit margin to 5% on each person but it is free, requiring no real work or distribution of product, since the supervisors do this on their own. Also, it makes them much more motivated because their profit margin is doubled from 25% to 50% right away, allowing them to bring in their own distributors at the 25% profit margin. As they do this, their product volume increases dramatically -- so the cut from 25% to 5% is more than offset. Further, they can do the same as well, building their own downline of supervisors. As they do so, they will be motivated to do their minimum of $2000 volume so that they qualify for maximum royalty too.

The bottom line is that everyone wins in this process. More profit is generated overall due to the increased consistent volume, and new royalties generated by the expanding business are shifted to the downline rather than being funneled through the upline. More people buy product at the 50% discount level, but this generates 15% profit that is shared through various levels of the business. Note, this is 15% on the retail price -- that comes to 30% on the wholesale price that supervisors buy at. This neglects tax + S&H, but this is ultimately paid by the product consumer as the cost is passed through the line.

The more I think about this, the more excited I get. The potential market is literally untapped. Further, there are not a lot of people who could figure this out or understand how to make it work this well. The greed principle would slow down overall organization growth by waiting until individual distributors were willing to come up with nearly $3000 before making them supervisors. This forces them to buy product at 25% discount for longer, but also slows their ability to build and expand their businesses -- in the process delaying when royalties kick in for the individuals in the downline.

Wow. We need to get this going ASAP. This is definitely the opportunity of a lifetime! Further, everyone benefits in the process -- the products work great, and the cost is more than reasonable for the change and control over one's life that they enable; not counting the business potential and wealth that is generated in one's whole organization. This is not a pyramid scheme where only the people that got in near the top make all the money. The bulk of royalties are paid at the three immediate levels above a new supervisor. The faster one gets supervisors in the downline, the sooner one gets royalties within their organization. All royalties for supervisors three level down are kept within the organization! They do not reach the upline at all.

I'm finding it very difficult to stay focused at work. The Herbalife potential and starting Beyond Imagination are so much more exciting to me. I'm not sure that I can put up with this job for another six months. Yet, the alternative is to come up with an alternate means of bringing in at least $4000 per month. If this were essentially tax free, it would be nearly equivalent to my current income less the increased commute costs for flying and a room in California. Hmm, what other services could I provide on a part time basis that would be fun, yet would bring in a consistent income as well?

There is really nothing to lose by doing this. Everyone will get their Herbalife products cheaper for their own consumption, will become healthier and able to manage their weight better, will have a business opportunity that can bring in substantial income, and will gain greatly in self-confidence in the process. Once again, everyone wins -- and wins big.

The next question is do I believe in this enough to make it work?, and further can I grow the business enough to be bringing in $4000 per month by Dec 93? My initial answer to both questions is YES, yes indeed! And, the immediate response within is "then, make it so!" Get people motivated and get it done. The sooner the better. Further, physical health is fundamental to the overall health of the whole being. If spirit is to be more fully expressed in flesh, then the temples must be restored to their optimal operating conditions; Herbalife could play a key role in this task. Wow! It's all coming together. This could be the means through which the Plan is allowed to unfold. There are no coincidences. My intuition tells me to go for it. After all, there is nothing to lose, and the whole world to gain. Also, this process does so much good, yet can build incredible amount of wealth for many in a very short time. This could very well be the source of funds for the work that Beyond Imagination is meant to do. Income above $5000 or so per month could go into a non-profit organization that allows the benefactor to do its stuff.

19 Aug 93

Wrote a two page memo about the process for building a Herbalife business. It sure looks easy! If we can get each new supervisor to get ten or so people in their personal organization and then promote at least one person to supervisor each month and replace the supervisor (and associated downline) with new people -- that's all it takes.

P.S. The end of the tunnel is in sight. It would be great if I could be earning enough through Herbalife by December to quit working for Loral. With a few highly motivated people doing this together, this is definitely achievable. Wow! To be completely free -- to no longer toil at the bidding of any prince! Wow, indeed! So let it be written, so let it be done.