1 Apr 93

The 2 soul, 5 personality combination feels right overall. I find all the connections very fascinating. I do blend the characteristics of a strong heart, with a practical mind that employs common sense. I remember deciding early in high school that the five - mental stuff was not enough. It was a good tool, but needed to be subjugated to a higher driver that originated in the soul but is seated in the Heart.

Further, my writings over the past five years have been highly associated with Love, Light, and Heart Wisdom. My destiny is 11/2, Peacekeeper and Inspirer. Also, I am a Teacher! And, from my aura, my soul's purpose is Peace.

Everything seems to fit. My talents and abilities are perfect for the expression of my destiny and purpose. My numbers are special, as are my colors, as are my rays -- and all of them indicate that I am here for a specific purpose. All of the details reinforce one another to support the same overall picture. Further, all of the signs indicate that my conscious awareness of my Self is both very deep and accurate. I am operating from a very high state -- this is confirmed everywhere I look. But, I don't feel I am applying these gifts in the optimum direction for achieving my purpose and chosen destiny. I am ready; or, at least, very close to being ready -- to materialize the circumstances that permit the full manifestation of my soul in flesh. And further, in a very practical way that others can follow as well.

Manifestation of "spirit in flesh" is a major theme. Building the practical foundations for the "Castles in the Air" -- this is what I came to do. This excites me to the very core of my being. In this manner, I can best express the essence of Whom That I Am.

Building a core support group around me is important. The work to be done requires the cooperation and co-creation of many. My sense is that these will be members of my spiritual family -- beings that I have been involved with and worked with many times before. Angela is one of these. Recognition is and will be instantaneous.

Another point to note, is that I am extremely happy when Love is around me -- whether this be with Gini, or Angela, or Jamie, or in seminars such as Tony Robbins and Stuart Wilde's. These are the times when my spirit soars -- when I feel fully alive, and am connected to All That Is.

Also, however, I need to be detached at times -- in my own space. Solitude is very dear to me, but not something I would be happy with forever. I need the interchange of energy with others at times. Love in a couple or group setting helps to recharge my batteries -- while solitude allows me to go deeper into the soul and essence, and escape from the overload of too much society. These must be balanced in my life.

P.S. I'm also good at seeing the forest through the trees, while maintaining sufficient understanding of the details within the overall general context. My forte is in generating the more general contexts in which the details make sense -- and in understanding how these relate to the abstraction. I generate new views, new ways of organizing and looking at things that facilitate understanding of overall behavior and higher level meaning. This includes how the parts fit together to make the whole. But, more importantly, it characterizes what's important about the system level or synergistic behavior of the whole.

Another match is my tolerance of other viewpoints and paths, and my willingness to evaluate new approaches based on their results (i.e. do they work?) Further, I'm willing to try out new beliefs on faith -- judging them by their fruits.

2 Apr 93

I'm still finding it difficult to focus on my Loral work. My mind and spirit desire to be elsewhere. I am not meant to be locked behind a desk -- essentially on my own. I need the freedom to be outside and to go wherever necessary to put myself in the optimum state for carrying out my purpose. That is neither here at Loral, nor in California. Colorado and New Mexico call to my soul. They are where I am to do my true work. Further, I need individuals around me with whom I can interact deeply -- on many levels. I feel my life is too isolated. I need some time in solitude, but I'm also a very social creature - - so long as the society I keep permits me to remain centered on my true love, purpose, and focus. Much of my task is to teach and be of assistance to others. To do that, I need to be in their presence.

I am not willing to interact with others on a mundane level. If the interaction cannot be infused with soul -- than I'm just not into it. I refuse to waste my time and effort on things that I do not value or find important. It's my choice ... this is how I choose to live my life. Life will have meaning or it is nothing. Love and Light must be manifest at all times.

The exercise with the ball of energy between my hands was very interesting today. I need to do more of that. I am driven to find practical ways in which to manifest spirit .. and enflesh more of the energy of soul. For me, the test must always be: does it work? ... and, is it elegant?

5 Apr 93

The saga continues. I'm very good at what I do -- but, it is such a waste overall. It is hard to see how anything truly beneficial will result, especially since most of it will be OBE in the coming few years. It was interesting watching Charlton Heston as Moses in The Ten Commandments. The part he played was extremely powerful -- showing the ability of one possessed by God to overcome all things. Moses life demonstrated the true power of spirit over flesh. The way they portrayed Moses, as illumined, after his experience with the burning bush, was exceptional. It made me long to have such an experience myself. I'm still very tied to my physical self, and to physical love. It would be helpful to have this transformed to the spiritual level -- where it could be much more readily expressed than in my current physical relationship with Gini. Also, something about the fire and intense light struck me deeply. It's as if there is this intense fire within me that has been locked away -- essentially all of my life. It is time to let it out -- to allow it to be expressed with the intensity and manner that is suitable to it's true nature. I am what I am. I AM THAT I AM. I AM! There is something about that phrase that brings to light a great truth. Much is connected. More and more, this I AM -ness is entering my experience. It seems like it is everywhere. No -- it is everywhere! Then again, this should not surprise me, now should it?

6 Apr 93

This continuing expression is becoming somewhat like a journal to me -- a way of documenting things, impressions, and ideas that enter my awareness. It's also an outlet for channeling information from other sources -- both within me and outside of the me that normally expresses itself through my consciousness and physical body.

While this is not directly related to completing Beyond Imagination, it is clearly important to getting me to the appropriate space and states from which completion will be possible. When that will be is unknown to me at this time. It will be finished when it is done; when the conditions are right for it to be released to the world.

My task is to maintain the focus, and stay with the flow -- allowing the material to flow through and spring forth from my soul and consciousness into flesh. I am the channel through which the words and ideas flow. I am not their source, only their means of expression. I AM is the true source. (Of course, as it should be!) Its expression will not be denied -- for it is destined to be manifest -- and soon, very soon indeed.

12 Apr 93

Well, I never did get back to continuing my thoughts on the 6th, or the 7th - 9th for that matter. It was a busy week -- but, I completed most of what needed to be done. The highlight of the week was easily my reading with Jan Kertz. She was outstanding. She got so many things right: community, Colorado, teacher, Gini's nature/character, house not ready to sell, Gini's "I'm not ready" wall, my nature, trip to visit Colorado soon, former life as lead monk in Himalayas, former lives in the Pleaides, star creation central, vision, planet is dying and must be transformed, came specifically to manifest vision at this time, trade-in van for 4WD before we leave, soul incognito, drawing my soul family to me, light workers connecting my grids so that I can be of service -- crown chakra already connected, now working on heart and solar plexus, attraction package for people who bought into the economic lie of hard work for things (house,car, ...), community service bureau, farm/greenhouse, unusual home -- like a lodge, combine business and home, lifestyle first then work ...

I've listened to the tape four times already. I'm still amazed at what she was able to pick up -- and how "right on" it was. It looks like Gini and I will be in Colorado by the Fall of 1993. Yeah!! It's about time! Once again, I got strong reinforcement that I'm on the correct path, exactly where I need to be to fulfill my chosen destiny. Everything's starting to fit together and fall into place. There are magic hands at work.

Well, I guess I'll get to play the role of philosopher-king after all -- even if it is disguised in the role of mayor of the community.

1994 is a big destiny year. But, at 40 (in 1998) I'll come into my full power. This next five years are going to be one hell of an adventure -- grand and glorious beyond imagination. And, as I thought, there will be many challenges -- but there will be much help on many levels through all of them. The future is bright indeed! It is time to create -- to manifest what I came here to be and to do. The masks must be taken off that the true spirit may shine through. Soul incognito, assuming the stuff of everyday life because that is what people do on Earth. But, I am not "of Earth"! This rings so true. No wonder I've felt like an outsider for so long. I am different than most people -- I've known it for a long time, basically, all my life.

What else can I say? Wow!!! So let it be written, so let it be done! The time I've been waiting for is finally here -- or at least, will be here momentarily. We're talking months. That's all, months! I can already sense the surge of freedom and enthusiasm springing forth from within me. I am what I AM! And I'll be able to openly express all that I AM very soon. Enough for now. The true adventure begins ...

P.S. It appears there are several who have work to do through me. And writing will play a key role in this. But teaching by example through demonstration is also an important part. To walk my talk -- living my metaphysics with every breath I take. Spirit in flesh, soul-enfleshed.

19 Apr 93

Back again. Something from the Vision of Ramala book struck me deeply -- the idea that this moment is the most important one of my life. And further, that this is true of each moment. Also, the idea that one should live one's life in such a manner that if one should die in the next moment there is still a sense of completion -- of having accomplished one's mission as well as is possible to that point in time.

During my trip to San Diego, I realized just how bored I was -- and how much time was wasted that could instead be directed toward what I dream to achieve in this lifetime. The bottom line is that I have more than enough time to do what I came here to do. What is limiting me, is my own choices about how I spend that time. Further, these choices are entirely under my control. Even with my current job and commute, I still have a lot of free time. In excess of 30 hours per week -- 3 hours/day x 5 + 2 days x 8-10 hours/day even with chores.

Lack of time is no longer an excuse. It is not the problem. The problem is lack of effective use of the free time that I do have. This I have complete control over! As of today, I chose to be more aware of how I use this time -- and to manage my state so that I can get maximum effectiveness (including play and creative fun) from my free time. I must express not only all that I am, but the energies of those who are meant to come through me as well. So let it be written! So let it be done!

20 Apr 93

The Vision of Ramala book continues to provide an abundance of material specifically relevant to my current state of being and awareness. I don't remember being so in tune with the material presented in the first two books. Last night, in particular, there was a passage that dealt with visiting the Temple of Love/Wisdom. This is definitely Ray 2 stuff. Then again, that no longer surprises me at all. On every front, I'm attracting exactly what I need (people, material, ideas) to engage in the tasks and activities that I came into this world to do. It's simply amazing how quickly the forces move to provide the means for manifesting one's destiny when the decision is made to serve as a vehicle for the Plan, that God's work and not mine be done.

More and more, this is becoming the only thing of importance to me. It's not what I have that ultimately gives me pleasure in life -- it's the great works that I do when aligned with Spirit to manifest the Plan, as good and as well as I am able in accord with my state of unfoldment. This is the true work I came to do. Further, it is what I must do! There is no other choice in line with my true nature.

The time is rapidly coming in which major world changes will be made manifest. Intuitively, I know what these changes will be -- and further, what needs to be done to facilitate the changes and to ensure that both individuals and society are transformed in a manner that allows the process to unfold in as elegant of a manner as possible.

Words are not the way, however. Active demonstration is required that provides others with a living example of the principles in action. By thy works ... show others how spirit can manifest in flesh. Walk your talk! Be the way shower!

I so long to be able to do this on a full time basis. This is my true occupation. It is the call of my spirit in response to my maker. May the Plan be achieved on Earth! And, may the role that I play be the best it can be; fully utilizing all the talents and resources that I have within me, and channeling the energies of Love/Wisdom for which I have the capacity and ability to serve.

21 Apr 93

Sorry, this will have to be quick. The day just flew by. It's interesting to note that in my Loral work, my expertise is being called on more and more at a time when I truly desire to be out of here -- in Colorado, where I can be more fully aligned with the destiny that calls me. I know this to be in accord with the Plan -- yet, at the same time, I know that God's timing is the right timing; so, it is not up to me as personality to dictate when this move will occur.

My sense is that I am ready -- or at least very close to being ready to make a great leap, not of faith, but of knowingness. I know that I am being pulled to Colorado to manifest my destiny -- to do the great work that I am meant to do. This is what excites me, what drives and attracts my spirit. It is time to start creating the society that is in my Vision. It awaits to be made manifest in this world. There is much to work out. But, I trust that all can be worked out -- for it is the work of spirit that we are doing, though it be through the souls, personalities, and abilities of those who choose to play a role in this adventure. Thy works will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven. Heaven-on-Earth, that is what is meant to be. It will be! And very soon, indeed! So let it be written, so let it be done!

This morning, I had an intuitive flash that the starting point was to be a Beyond Imagination newsletter -- to be published monthly, with the first issue dated April 93. That does not leave much time to write and format it, so I'd better get busy.

22 Apr 93

Earth Day! That's appropriate for a 22 day in a 29/11 month in a 22 year. It also corresponds with some the material I just read in the Vision of Ramala book. Humans have abused the Earth for a number of years -- it is high time we seriously began to fulfill our role as stewards and caretakers of the Earth, that is our home. Well, home for many, at least -- even if it be not my home. It's simply amazing to see how much of the information that is coming to me and through me is interconnected. It's as if everything has its place -- all the pieces of the puzzle are coming together by their very nature, without any real struggle on my part. Further, they are arriving in a manner that makes the connections so obvious -- at least for my consciousness.

It's interesting to see, that as soon as I decided and firmly committed to play my role within God's Plan, all things seem to be coming to me. Once again, I am truly excited about life -- and about doing the great works that I came here to do -- helping the planet to move to a new dimension, as well as those souls ready and willing to move along with it into a glorious new age. I know there will be challenges and difficulties. But, these will be minor compared to the wonders that will manifest when the Light shines forth that spirit may be more fully expressed in flesh. The fifth dimension is nigh upon us. It will be here in the blink of an eye. All who are ready may pass through its gates and embark on a grand adventure indeed. For the Age of Aquarius will truly be one of the Great Golden Ages. How wondrous it feels to be a part of all this -- an instrument in the Plan, at this crucial juncture. My spirit sings and soars at the very thought. Soon, very soon, we will be together again. I can already sense my soul group being drawn to me. I can hardly wait for the glories that are to be!

23 Apr 93

I watched the movie about the Exxon Valdez accident again last night. The accident was horrendous. I was particular disturbed by the incompetence of the people working for the Government -- and by the complete self-interest and profit motivation on the part of the oil industries. Something has got to give. The world cannot tolerate this kind of abuse for much longer. It's as if the entire economic system is completely divorced from any spiritual principles. There has to be a better way -- and, it must be manifest soon. The current system is rapidly headed for a big crash.

The Earth Day special prior to the movie was also enlightening. It's message was very negative overall, yet, at the same time it was honest and realistic. The time frame analogy they used was frightening. The idea that if we take the 4 Billion years that the Earth has been around and compress it to seven days, then humans have only been around since three minutes before midnight on the final day -- and the industrial revolution started three seconds before midnight puts an interesting perspective on how much damage we have truly done to the environment in what amounts to a minuscule amount of time.

This must change. I'm glad to have a role to play in bringing about a world that is more sane. A world in which responsibility for stewardship is an integral part of human expression and creation on the planet. There is a better way through Light and Love in accord with the Plan.